'We can hear the first beat to the flat line'

You know when you begin to speak and you slowly start to lose track of what you originally wanted to say? Then after your ramble has started to take a giant leap off of a bridge into an entirely different subject than you ever wanted to enter you think 'oh god...this is awful'. The moment of the 'flatline'. Too late to save it. Too late to go back. Welcome to my life-my conversational life anyway.

The more I think about it...I've decided that I don't have anything really profound to say. You know-I'm ok with this. I really am. Why should anyone ever have anything profound to say all of the time. If each and every person had something amazing to say every time they opened their mouth, things would eventually stop sounding so...profound. Right? Maybe-I don't know. This is just my personal opinion but I think that I would much rather hear ramblings...yeah. Yeah, I feel that I would much rather hear the thought process happen outside of the brain than just the outcome. You can learn so much more from this-The process. It is interesting to me-what we track.

At times we focus so much on the product rather than the process and it's something that I feel many should stop and consider. I'm not just saying this to justify my ramblings, but I very much feel that it is a necessary observation that needs to take place. I know that many realize there is a process that we must go through and to let things 'take their course'...but I don't know that they really follow and take note of the process that's happening; to enjoy the process for what it is. I know I write about this a lot-but it's an essential part of life that I cross paths with far too often. So it's a part of me that I want to share.

Scribbles. When I look at the papers in front of me...that's all I see-scribbles. A set of groupings that look like a giant nonsensical mess. I don't think that I'll turn these papers in to be graded. I doubt they will be in my favor. They make perfect sense to me though. That's ok...my process.
So, instead, I've decided to take the day for myself. To recoup. 'Find my center' as they say. I'll memorize lines. Rearrange my room. Do some laundry. Catch up on some work. Call some friends. Read a book. Do some yoga. Make delicious food...essentially be a normal human being. My papers will take their course and we'll work together later-but for today-it's my day. I want to enjoy it for what it is.