Let's Roll.

I was following the...
I was following the...
I was following the...the something.
I don't know what.


Looking around my room, I'm slowly realizing how much CRAP I have. Really, 97.3% of the things I own are crap. All of it: My journals, the furniture we've redone, the pictures, dare I even say the antique books I that adore more than my own dog. Though, the remaining 2.7% of things are of extreme importance. I assure you: Clean underwear, new shoes, my collection of buttons from the past five years...if lost, these would pull at my heartstrings forever.

Life is difficult to get through. It's a process and it's discipline of acknowlegment.




'Freeing the Natual Voice' by Kristin Linklater discusses, through various exercises, how to help acknowledge and then encourage the body to free the natural voice that is sometimes stiffled by life and its interworkings. Within us all, there is human expression. Within us all, there is blocked human expression. This is brought about by action/reaction. Then, the physical voice is stimulated. With the voice, there is articulation, vibration and resonance...What we feel.

What I've discovered is that the blocks are often completely invisible. For me, I never realized how many emotional blocks from my 'natural voice' there were until taking a thorough scan of my body for weeks trying to find out what I feel, what works, what doesn't-what's important. I don't know what caused them, but these are there. Now knowing this, now knowing that I can't physically feel vibrations in parts of my body because of this tension, I feel as though there is a completely different person that I've never discovered. All of a sudden, my buttons don't matter. My books don't matter. My shoes are shabby and absolutely none of these things can help aid me in filling that void.

Luckily, I am aware of this, and luckily I purchased the book to help instruct me how to fix them. What an actor am I...buying books.

What if I hadn't of taken the time to figure out within me what is important? What works, what doesn't? I'm moving in a few months...to where, I don't know yet. Somewhere exciting I hope. Somewhere that I can fully expereince everything for all it's worth-all it's vibrations and places of resonance that it has to offer (that was really corny, just go with it). Really though, I've been in this town for five years and I still feel that there is so much to experience...but it's time to move on. It's time to leave this crap I sometimes think is important behind. Clean underwear and all.

So here's to the natural parts of life. To the real, the honest, the scared, the good, and the blocked. Taking it for what it is...I'm peacing outta this town.