Homebird Sings

Spring Break:

My spring break plans did consist of a very fun filled ride down to Arkansas for a service/mission trip...but plans do change, as did mine. I haven't blogged much about it because I feel so...emo talking about the rotten things in my life, but to put it simply this past semester hasn't been the best. So, very last minute, I decided that it was best for me to stay at home for spring break. I needed the rest and catch up time for many things. Boring? Ahhhh, yeah, but I was in much need of nothing to do. Not only that, but it's been amazing spending this time with family, friends, AND working on things for the show (which is one of the main reasons why Little Rock was sadly put aside). I feel that I could have probably gotten things done on the trip that I needed to and still contributed, but-Solitude of my home has never been so good for me.
Good news: I am making way with everything that I needed to get done; so this is good.

I can't help but become caught up with the past when I'm home. I'm surrounded by houses, streets, and things that I have so easily dismissed as 'home' and now that I am back it's like a wave of high school and beyond has completely rushed over me. Overwhelmed with memories of life before Manhattan, I have started to think, oddly enough, with a clear head; as if my current Manhattan life had never really happened and I'm thinking from a seniors point of view thinking of life and new opportunities; It's like thinking of the future from a clean slate.
Side catch up note: I've been thinking of transferring for sometime now. Nothing is wrong with Manhattan or school, I love Manhattan and the department that I'm in...I just feel really really restless and that my life isn't moving-not in the right direction-but just not really moving at all. I sort of feel like there's nothing really to look forward to or to get excited about. However, there's no where to transfer to (ie: $$$). So I've been thinking of ways to re-direct my life in Manhattan. Changes that might make my life feel fuller, happier...more of the way I used to be when at 'home'. Change is great, but I don't know if I feel comfortable with the way that I've grown in the past few years. Growing is one thing, but...I don't even know what I'm saying. Maybe a study abroad trip to Tuscany is in need-or a spur of the moment trip to Texas?! I just need a drastic crazy-good change in my life soon-some, dare I say, fun; erica syle. I feel bland and dull.